Quitting Smoking 6/6/12

One of the things that are suggested by those who like to suggest ways to quit smoking is to write a list of the reasons you smoke.  They (who are “THEY” and where DO they get these ideas from, I am not really sure) say to list every cigarette you smoke and what was going on when you smoked it. So if I light up, what was happening? Was there a crisis? That kind of thing. So, I did or, actually, I thought about it. I did not write this list as I smoked each cigarette. I will say that if this is supposed to an awareness thing, then I am screwed. Even knowing when and why I smoke still does not prepare me not smoke. They also say, (there THEY are again) that knowing is half the battle and that I can plan on how I am going to handle each situation as a non-smoker. Oh yeah? We shall see. Here is my list.


  •  First thing in the morning, I have my cigarette, with or without coffee
  • After meals or eating. Have been known to excuse myself from the table, walk out of the restaurant, find a “secluded” area and have a cigarette. Then I go to the bathroom and wash my hands to mitigate the smell.
  • When I am bored. This is the big one. I am bored a lot.
  • When I have been writing and I am stuck. The words are not coming to me or my character won’t behave or I just do not know where to go next.
  • When I am on the phone. I walk outside and smoke. A lot.
  • When I am with friends. If we are outside and we are in a deep conversation or if we are having fun, I light up.
  • When I think I will not be able to have another one for a while. If I am going somewhere where I know I will not be able to have a cigarette for an hour or more I tend to smoke more than if I think I can have one at anytime. For some reason, my brain says “Hey! You can’t smoke for the next two hours, load up now!”
  • When I am driving. I smoke a lot when I am driving. For some reason time is slower when I drive and I can have a cigarette, fifteen minutes later want another one. It is almost as if I judge smokes by distance rather than by time.  I am going on a road trip this weekend and will be driving for some 6 hours.  I plan to pay attention to the time and not the distance. Wonder if I can stick to not smoking in the car?
  • When I have finished a task. When I have a task that I am having trouble starting or I just do not want to do, I “reward” myself with a cup of coffee and a smoke. I think this one will be easy to break for me. Chocolate works , as well as a reward of a movie, game etc.
  • When I am very happy or very sad.

The above list is, I am sure, not complete. I smoke way too much for it to be so, but it pretty  much covers it. You will notice that I did not list crisis situations. That is because during a crisis, I tend to be a person who holds it together and takes care of whatever the situation is. It is afterwards, when all is well or put into the proper hands, that is when I fall apart. And that is when I want a cigarette.

I have 10 days before my quit day

DISCLAIMER: These posts are nothing more than chronicling my efforts to quit smoking. Anything I write is nothing more than my way of doing so and my feelings associated with those efforts. If you are inspired to quit smoking by anything you read here, please see a doctor and follow their instructions. I, in no way, am suggesting or recommending anything as means of smoke cessation.

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