Smoke Free 53 Days

This last week I went ahead and stepped down, again, with the nicotine patches. If you read the instructions and if I listened to the gal who gave the stop smoking seminar 53 days ago, I am doing it all wrong. I am changing patches too fast. I would probably tell you that the best you can do is to follow the directions and use the patches for the length of time it suggest.  As for myself, I get annoyed with the patch. I do not know how to explain exactly, but I will try.
When I first quit smoking, I was quite comforted by the nicotine patch. I had tried them previously, but had always used the lowest dose possible. That was mostly due to the fact that I was in denial about how much i really did smoke. This time I used the highest dose. I was so freaked out by not smoking that I  kept it on 24 hours a day. It comforted me to have it on, not to mention that it actually does give you a low steady dose of nicotine. After about a week, I began to forget I had it on.
Then I started to have dreams, very very vivid and scary dreams. I cut it back to 8-12 hours. The dreams went away. A strange thing happened. Right around 4 pm, I started to feel the patch on wherever it was. It began to bother me, becoming itchy and annoying. So, I would pull it off. Instant relief. This went on for a few weeks with me leaving the patch on for less and less time. Some days even forgetting to put one on. When I ran out of the patches, I decided that since I only really  wore it about 5 to 6 hours, I would “Step Down” or use the next lower dose. Much sooner than the instructions.
Well, same thing happened, only quicker. I would put on the patch and about 6 hours later it would bother me.I took it off and felt better. I should mention that it did not irritate my skin, I do believe it is more of an awareness thing. I become aware I am wearing it again and it bothers me. It seemed to be only days. Again I sometimes forget to wear it. I did suffer from little bit of a withdrawal when is stepped down, kinda grumpy and emotionally sensitive. I do not think it was too bad..but I have not polled those around me either.Since I forget to wear it, I stepped down again. I am now wearing the lowest dose possible.
Now before you all go thinking I am wonderful I will remind you that I am still using the lozenges..the mini ones. I stepped down on those as well and am using stage 2. The lozenges however are my back up and I am using very few of them these days as well. I am more comforted by just having them then actually using them. Heck, most of the time I pop one in my mouth and spit it out 5 minutes later.
On a lighter note, one of the things just about everyone told me I would have to do in order to quit smoking is to give up coffee. Well, like hell. I refused to give up coffee. It runs out that  coffee isn’t that great. My taste buds are changing and things are tasting much better and much different than before. The coffee brand I always drank doesn’t taste as good as i thought it did. I have been on the search for good, inexpensive coffee. I have found some that is tolerable but have not yet found the “One”. My search continues.

 

DISCLAIMER: These posts are nothing more than chronicling my efforts to quit smoking. Anything I write is nothing more than my way of doing so and my feelings associated with those efforts. If you are inspired to quit smoking by anything, you read here, please see a doctor and follow their instructions. I, in no way, am suggesting or recommending anything as means of smoke cessation.

2 thoughts on “Smoke Free 53 Days”

  1. martin bannon - August 2, 2012 10:54 am

    brought back more memories from when i quit. just keep keepin’ on.

    1. T Whitaker - August 2, 2012 10:56 am

      It is all I can do..I just do what I can do…and so far it is working for me

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