Quitting Smoking 6/5/12

I offered to give someone a ride the other day. The response was “NO! YOU Smoke!”  Said in a derisive tone.  Not “No thank you” but a sneering reply that insinuated that I was right up there with mass murders and molesters.  When did it become such an evil thing?

When I first started to smoke, no one really cared much. Now, however, I find myself hiding to have a cigarette. I am not sure when I started to care, but I do. I do not go out of my way to offend anyone and happily find a place to smoke far away from people.  I have gone so far to huddle in an alleyway, by the dumpsters, smoking my cigarette, hiding, like some shady character. Not really sure when it happened, when I transformed into a societal pariah, but happen it did. I guess those ads and campaigns against smoking and, of course big tobacco, are working. I do not blame the tobacco companies for my smoking; however, no one shoved a cigarette in my mouth and made me smoke it. Sorry those against big tobacco, but my smoking had nothing to do with their tobacco ads, packaging, etc. I did not start smoking because Joe Camel was on an ad. I actually never thought about what brand I was smoking until I was much older and could afford my own cigarettes.  Even then, what I smoked changed a lot up, depending on my mood, up until about 10 years ago.

Back to the gal sneering at me and refusing to ride in my car. I was a little upset.  It was uncalled for, yet she is not the only one. It is now acceptable to treat someone else rudely because they are a smoker.  I have had people deliberately go out of the way to come to where I am smoking (far away  from them) to tell me I am killing them with my second hand smoke. Rude.  Can you imagine if we treating, let’s say, an overweight person that way? Oh, the shit would hit the fan.

“No, I don’t want to go to the restaurant with you! You’re Fat!”

“Excuse me, you are fat and your second hand fatness is unhealthy for me”

Yeah, that wouldn’t go over very well. Besides, I would never do that.  I don’t actually really care about what people do or how they treat their bodies. Do I believe that my cigarettes are healthy? No. Do I believe that second hand smoke is unhealthy? Sure. Just like smog. Do I believe that gives you the right to be rude, to seek me out, and to single me out? No. I am asking for you not to be rude.

I have an addiction, just like someone who is addicted to drugs, alcohol, overeating, gambling or whatever.  It is an addiction. One I am trying to break. No, you don’t have to excuse me nor pity me. However, you really, really do not have to be rude.

 

I have 11 days until my quit date.

 

DISCLAIMER: These posts are nothing more than chronicling my efforts to quit smoking. Anything I write is nothing more than my way of doing so and my feelings associated with those efforts. If you are inspired to quit smoking by anything you read here, please see a doctor and follow their instructions. I, in no way, am suggesting or recommending anything as means of smoke cessation.